
Well, this last Saturday was the big day. It was Brooke's first roller derby bout with the the San Angelo Soul Sisters in Abilene. The entire week leading up to Saturday Brooke was a nervous wreck, especially on Friday. She spent a few hours with friends on Friday night to help calm herself and then off to bed early so she could get an early start to Abilene to help set up the rink. But sleep was difficult to come by, tossing and turning, worried about performing well for the team and not letting anyone down. We even had family and friends coming in from Lubbock, DFW and Austin to watch which I'm sure added a little more pressure.
The alarm clock went off at 8:00am and I could tell that Brooke didn't get any sleep. She was sick to her stomach and looked as if she had only gotten an hour of rest. But, she was determined and pushed on, meeting up with teammates and heading up the Abilene. I had to stay in town for the morning to shoot a few photos of a local golf tournament at San Angelo Country Club, put photos into the system for publication and pick up friends to head to Abilene. I was incredibly thankful I was able to go. A change in my schedule earlier in the week allowed me to attend the bout. Originally, I was supposed to shoot the drag boat races at Lake Nasworthy, an assignment usually known for long days in the burning heat and lack of shade. I was thankful to be indoors.

We met up with the family and headed into the Abilene Civic Center for the bout. Most of my family were surprised that Brooke would even be involved in something like roller derby. Brooke is also a member of the Junior League of San Angelo, which is kind of an odd combination of groups to be a part of. Everyone was expressing concern for Brooke's safety. And as the start of the bout neared, nerves ran high.
The first whistle blew. The bout had begun. The sound of wheels rolling across the cement combined with the clap of safety pads and helmets on the hard surface were second only to the cheers of the crowd. I was keeping a close eye on Brooke to see when she would be given the call to go in. I was technically working for the Standard-Times so I was trying to shoot as much of the action as I could, but I didn't want to miss Brooke heading into the game. Finally, with about 15 minutes left in the first half, Brooke was called up to act as a blocker in the pack. I'm not going to lie, I was a little nervous. Brooke isn't that big and some of the Abilene players were delivering some pretty big hits. But as it turned out, this particular jam only lasted about a minute, and Brooke was called to the bench.
Okay, first live jam under her belt, no problem.

A few minutes later Brooke was called back into the line up as the jammer, the member of the team who scores all the points during a jam, and the one who has all the opposing team members gunning for her. This was going to be more of a test of Brooke's determination than anything. The whistle blew to start the jam and Brooke was second to come off the line behind the Abilene jammer. On her own admission, Brooke has said she needs to work on her starts more and getting off the line faster. To tell you the truth Brooke's jam was a blur. I knew she was taking some hard hits and falls, but most of them came on the opposite side of the rink from where I was sitting. But, during one of those falls she smacked her head pretty hard and in the process of getting back up she lost her vision for a few seconds and when it came back it was as if her eyes where crossed. Her vision righted itself and she continued with the jam not wanting to disappoint her team. The jam was finally called off and Brooke skated back to her bench, handed the jammer cap off to someone else and tried to get her head straight.

The first half came to an end and the teams headed upstairs to the dressing rooms overlooking the rink. I was watching to see if Brooke was among the group, but I didn't see her until about five minutes later. I was worried, but she was upright and skating on her own. The halftime lasts about 20 minutes and I was keeping an eye on the SASS dressing room door to see if Brooke was going to come out early. I thought perhaps I would ask her how she felt just to gauge her mental status. I saw a few of the other girls come out and start looking over the crowd in a hurried manner which caught my attention. I stood up, took about three steps and was confronted by one of Brooke's teammates saying she was asking for me. This couldn't be good.
I believe there is a rule in roller derby that if you have to get checked out by medical staff, your night is over. Apparently Brooke's blow to the head was severe enough that she was being checked out by four paramedics. They were looking for signs of a concussion, but ultimately found none. The Scarlet Shredder's night was over.
I walked into the dressing room to find Brooke sitting in a chair surrounded by teammates, hands shaking enough that she needed help removing her skates. The second half was about to start and the rest of the team headed back down to the rink leaving Brooke and I alone in the room. Brooke is a pretty emotional person, and most of the time those emotions come out as tears. Yes she was in pain, yes she was disappointed with her performance, but most of all I think the tears flowed because she thought she was letting her team down. Brooke's release from all the stress of working and going to school full-time has been her meetings with this group of women three times a week for roller derby practice. She has made new friendships and forged new bonds with women of the community. Her love for these women is as passionate as I've ever seen and I'm eternally grateful for the support, respect and friendship given back to Brooke by these amazing women.
Thanks, y'all.
In the end, The San Angelo Souls Sisters came up short when time ran out. But every bout is a learning experience. I know the team was hoping for a better outcome on the scoreboard, but holding true to their winning spirit they thanked the Abilene team for the opportunity to play, wished them luck in the future and said their goodbyes. It was a fun night and an eye-opening experience for Brooke. And determined to stick with it, Brooke hopes to have another opportunity to make another roster. Though I'm sure that none of my parents will be able to watch another bout anytime soon if Brooke is going to be wearing the jammer cap.